Friday, May 8, 2009
Pride
This post is specially dedicated to my batch. Only after the damn SYF do i realise how much i miss every single one of you (yes even you). I miss playing pieces with you guys and making chen lin angry or upset. I miss performing Westside Story (OUR song) in perth, in Singapore, in practically wherever we go. I miss shouting in the band room, i miss having just us, the "easy way out" batch in the band room, fighting for recognition, improvement, fighting for respect.
Although it is all over now, almost in a blink of an eye, it has been recorded for eternity in my heart. I guess we will always be remembered? Watching how Mr. G describes his previous batches extensively, i am sure we will be mentioned to the future generations of the band. Maybe he will say, we are the batch that cannot perform, we are the batch that deals with things the easy way out, we are the batch that puts in no effort, has no discipline and no sense of urgency. We are the underperforming batch of SAJC. These words were once true, don't we all agree? We started off the journey as a batch on a rough stony road, people were expecting to see great things coming from us, but all they got were mere disappointment. They hoped that in months to come then we'd have put up something to show them the miracle; yet on the 8th March it did not happen, still.
Many have pointed their fingers, scratched their heads and thought, what had went wrong with this batch? and some of us, even some of ourselves were affected, dejected, and almost gave up on each other. But, we manage to cling on to our passion for music, our passion to make IT work.
We try and we try, again and again. We don't care how much others may criticise us, how much disappointment they may reveal, we do our best and we keep trying. For more than a year we push and push, slowly but surely we told ourselves we are going to climb to the top.
We did it. Astounding chord, jaw-dropping performance, brilliant band, fantastic spirit. What can i say? I am proud to be a member of SAJCCB; not just because of its reputation as one of the best band, but also because of the sweat and tears the J2s have planted into their lives in band. We have come a long, and definitely, a harder way.
For days and nights i thought to myself why am i in band and why the hell am i still playing cornet haven't i promised myself never to touch the trumpet/cornet ever again in my life? Several times i thought of leaving, cos the whole thing appears to me as pointless and energy-sapping. I wanted to quit on you guys, i wanted to quit on cornet, i wanted to quit on music, i wanted to quit on myself. But somehow life twisted itself and i stayed. And never regretted.
The fact that we have successfully climbed from the bottom to finally, the peak of our own mountains, makes me feel proud and contented that everything has been fulfilled. Our dreams and desires ever since we started out, are fulfilled. To finally prove ourselves, and to put up a musical performance to touch the hearts of the people. We did it, we did it :)
And thanks to the j1s, it'd have been impossible without you guys. I am excited for what is instored for all of you in the upcoming year, and i am absolutely anticipating greater performances from all of you. Up and on j1s, don't miss us too much! :)
and once again, thank you (to my batch), all of you for enduring the race altogether. though we may not be the most brilliant and talented/"shen" batch.
to Eric and Phyllis, double thumbs up for the good job you guys have did in leading us. It definitely was harder for you people, but being the leaders you had to finish the race, and i must say you have done an awesome job in leading and taking care of all of us. Thank you!
to Miss ho, the band'd not have survived without your immense support and help and everything you poured into making things work for us. When people lost hope in us, you continue to believe. Thank you for everything :D
to Mr. G, everything, the chord, the performance, would have been shit if not for you. Thank you for not giving up or walking out on us. Thank you for your guidance, patience, and motivation. YAY SAINTS FCK IT. and because of you, on the 7th May i played, for the first time,with joy and serenity in my heart knowing that i am going to enjoy myself. And for the first time, i felt the band's spirit, i saw every single one of us moving together as ONE, and for once, i did not freak out. Thank you for you, and the musical blast that happened for everyone.
to my batch, it is over now, and it's time for all of us to move on. It is hard to let go, and it will take some time to forget the pain of missing being in the band room, of being the one that owns the band room. Though the pressure of BT2 and A levels is building up, let us all excel in our academics like how we have in our music :)
to the j1s, thank you for joining this band. and never for a moment should you doubt your existence or contribution to the band, because everyone of you counts. And i am sure, your batch will carry SAJCCB to a higher level. Up and On!
p.s to Joanne, Linda, Lynn, and Sean Quek, i love you people nobody can replace you guys in my heart, ROCK ON AND JIA YOU!
lastly to all Alumni, esp Mr. Sim and Mr. Yeo, a million thanks for running the race with us. And you guys did an excellent job in helping our band. :)
9 months of buzzing/singing off stage
20 minutes of performance on stage
months of metronome work behind our stands
20 minutes of a common heartbeat as a band
tears of fear and anxiety before The Day
but jubilation and euphoria took over our heart and soul
together we made it happen
together, a musical miracle
P.S I MISS THE SAJC 2004 BLOG ITS NICER, CAN WE CHANGE THE LAYOUT HERE ITS TOO DARK AND SMALL D:
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